ART against DEPRESSION
or as friends – art and depression
Art is a grear gift against depression. Artwork can be depressive. Often it is, when displaying the dark and unwanted sides of our inner experiences. Expressing and creating art can support the handling and the walking with depression. Instead of yelling or hurting yourself or other people you are able to put the pain on canvass, may it transforms, may it increases, may it is ugly, may it is just as it is. But as you move on in creating your emotions move on. Your inner room can widen or you can express this inner prison. Some call it a inner fight. Here are some personal experiences, text and words I made with a strong and grey melancholic and depressive mood. May it inspires you or may you loose some fear, expressing your inner pictures or thoughts.
There are some simple ways and things which get you more depressive
sleeping, thinking about same things, talking too much without acting, staying inside, loneliness, tiredness, thoughts which put you down and do not acknowledge the inner potential, hopelessness, helplessness, anger, reoccurring bad moods and so on. When the fear comes that it never will change this increases in a invicious cycle.
Ther are some other ways and actions as habits which get you less depressive
sports, movement, swimming, walking, doing creative stuff, dancing to music, touch, laughter
creation is a deep way to express all kind of feelings and put them visible to you and an external world
instead of being aggressive against something – put the emotions on paper, on canvass
show it, share it, talk about it, feel what the picture needs, ask it where it want to be
You are lost
you tried
and it doesn’t work
no
move with joy
no
sleep
no
conquer doubt
hard to
continue
step by step
in the past
sometimes grateful
now
grey
to manage the grey monster
get a friend with it
walk with it
see how you feed it
talk with it
be with it
hide and secure it
save it
dance
sleep
spit it out
give it colours, love, touch, attention and throw sticks it has to get
.
knowing that there are days
nothing will reach you
nothing is there to do
nothing is filled with joy
.
impermanence
.
patience
A R T & D E P R E S S I O N
a good friend told me – you know what depression is?
It is aggression against oneself.
By the time you just forget or could not act out the anger and it turned
against yourself.
..
this process sometimes needs courage
this process sometimes needs power
this process sometimes doesn’t flow
this process sometimes is the source
may you win
may you loose
I don’t now
My personal story of melancholy and sadness is covered here
and it started before my daughter died
but after that
all changed
and slowly
I died with her
alive in sadness
– http://healingstorytelling.net/?page_id=481
at the beginning
Most works was done in a show off phase
where I try to hide my emotions
and try to put something nice on paper
still beneath you recognize
my needyness
so much
so much
so much
needed time
needed trust
needed energy
needed rituals
needed friends
needed to recover from failure
and had somehow the patience
to continue
some friends helped me
some left me behind
some just get lost
in their own
fight.
there is nothing to hide
there is no structure
there are no borders
so play around
hide it, structure it, border it
there is a beauty
and there is ugliness
there is a dance between both
or a distance which can not be closed
what is inside of you
any resonance
will get in contact
lost
never found
just lost
with which part
what is the distance
where is the silence
when do you come back
or just
recognize
With or Without Prayers
with or without
cause and effect
with or without
anger
with or without
sadness
as something is lost
when anger rises
something hides
when unpleasant is there
with or without
deep loving parts,
with or without
trying to escape
nothing to improve
with or without
meaning
everything changes
not only when it is expected
to do so
and when it changes
you are not sure
to recognize
new
old
returning cycles
of suffering
with or without
shouting
I am still there
with or without
Breathing
slowly awakening
with or without
my hearbeat
I stop beating myself
and soften up my
courage to fell
whatever is
.
.
poetry by björn nonhoff, without prayers
forget
let loose
hold tight
and love
whatever is
or hate
whatever is
you are the difference
now
.
fake it easy
fake easy
fake joy
fake life
fake love
fake fuck
accept
fake is real
real is fake
fake off
fake on
fake off
fake on
.
cause if you fake it here
you can fake it everywhere
“be the answer to your questions.
Be the laughter between your ears”
b.nonhoff, fake it here
cloud prayer
.
cloudy depressive fog
cool grey will touch my dry eyes,
mind, heart
forgotten
fading colour
will get
you
so lets sleep
wait
doubt
and fall
will
come
be
all the darkness
here and there
exactly now
hopeless
just accept
the inability to accept
no start
no choice
no time
make a wish
a tiny small wish
whisper it to the grey fish
and do not search for the ears of understanding
don’t wait for the pencil to smile
you forget your pin
to the laughing youth of beeing without fear and anger
your joy account is lost
be the pin
and pin it
between your lips
for 1 minute
but
do
not
sm i l e
please
do
not
sm i l e
be
the answer
on unasked questions.
Be
the laughter
between other people ear
b.nonhoff, prayer for a depressive cloud which died yesterday
smiling hurts
may you smile more often
not only keep your pen in the air
I wonder if you have asked that question
or that is an answer
probably it is just a wonder
and sometimes it is dark
call for help
now
cry
dance
sleep
everything will change
do not force
do not try
do not do
just smile
and take the pain
the smile train
b.nonhoff, countless prayers for countless beings
open heart
if
if you are inspired
be it
if you are unspired
be it
and if not
be that
b.nonhoff, be
sometimes it is
It was never meant to be
hard, fixed, boring, sad
and sometimes it is
NOT
it was ever meant to be
wide, free, easy, joyful
but sometimes it is
JOY
sometimes I remember my inner melody
sometimes I connect to my wide universe of creativity
sometimes I am in a dark, ugly, never-ending mood
and out of there, I get my source of power
that may is true – but not real
but sometimes it is
my life is dedicated to inspire
to remember me is happening
to make some steps and breaths
towards you
to dance
to inspire
to silence
the need to need
and sometimes it is
silent
it may work for you
as many visitors before
it may give some
warm-hearted feeling
it may awake
the free heart and mind
it may just is as it is
like you are as you are
and sometimes it is
no difference
between all the yous and mess
life is a dance
possi-billing the time of our lives
life is letting
touch your inner wisdom
life is sharing
impress and pull the lights
life is peaceful
life is
for you
life is
for us
life was
before death
Kind hug
wise laughter
and silent smile
b.nonhoff, countless prayers for countless beings
More Information on the Geschichtenerzähler Björn Nonhoff you get on his website www.nonhoff.info
Here is a great “child”- a book read in a video – giving an overview and ideas how to live with depression or people with depression …
Here is a Link to a video whith a psychologist talking about depression
https://www.youtube.com/watch?t=2527&v=d8BoC313tR4
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love yourself
handshake with your inner vision